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My favorite band is HIM, one thing that I dislike with much passion is asses who wear their shirts cause they are from Hot Topic ( oh so they must be cool if its from there) and do not know a fucking thing about HIM, you all fucking need to die.
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When Love And Death Embrace"
I'm in love with you And it's crushing my heart All I want is you To take me into your arms
When love and death embrace
I love you And you're crushing my heart I need you Please take me into your arms
When love and death embrace When love and death embrace When love and death embrace When love and death embrace
I like going through my old online journals. I very much update my livejourna.. usually for the pleasure of the viewing of others. But. in my town, I'm basically the ONLY person in spring hill who owns a blogdrive. I use to even write in this when I had double vision. I have to find a lot of time to do the lay-out. Probably by this summer. I get cable internet in about 2 weeks. I have usually mornings on weekends work, or at school. I need to find a long full day of nothing to get this journal back and up. On to me, well I have been good. School is going great for me, I still do have my bad grammar and stay up late doing homework while falling asleep in class. I cherish the time when I get to sleep. I do not sleep a lot due to being busy, not the busy of chatting or hanging out with friends. I occupy myself with school, homework, and work. I recently bought this computer and I think this whole week I am going to only use it for homework. Almost been working at taco bell for a year, and I still hate every moment working. I read some older entries, the guy Simpson, well we broke it off, LONG TIME AGO, and kinda friends now. The guy Alex, well we're ok friends and I do not want to go into that now. I feel anxiety at times, only due to homework. I feel I will not succeed in going to college, but I'm trying my best. Come to think of it, I should be getting off this computer!! No new boys, but a lot of guys do find me attractive, i do not know. See I'd like one, but theres not enough time. I still have my old close friends, Nikki,Tanvi, and Liz. Although we've all grown up differently. Liz is homeschooled. But, we now are employeed. I'm yet the only one without a car or needless to say, can drive. ahh well I'll much more to update.. later
school was fair, i mean i dont know a day where the words can actually come out and describe school as being "AWESOME". i mean like always spaced out, was really cold, and fell asleep.... nothing new. other than its gay spirit week. yeah and it was clash day, woo fucking doo doo. i happen to of course like always wear black and even matched. purple hair with purple converses, how about that ? eh. well i went to see my couselor, nice lady. i was presented with a chocolate cake to bring home. Marc calls and we FINALLY meet one another.. marc is a hottie =). i'm really tired right now. i plan on doing very good in school... i really want to go to USF, its my dream. i can do it bitches. hanging out with marc, lavon, and duane was awesome. very talented in music and we're all getting anal... i wont be first :: wink::. well i happen to be like one of the only girls who claims oral sex is awesome.... yay... i have had AWESOME oral... only from one guy!! but AWESOME.. yea you see those caps. i'm real tired and in the process of calling Nikki to have her bring over mean girls.... later
puss in boots was quite the character, i mean with those big eyes and purring.... aww such a cute kitty, who would want to fight him. Ian paid a total of a $1.50 for us both...i'm such a cheap date!! we came back and watched strangers with candy...FINALLY someone got to check out my room!!! Luis is crying his ass off right now... i am tired and in a "blah" mood.... heh goodnight.
..... been on a goal for 12 hours of sleep. overall my saturday was not that bad at all. before work ian and i planned for today to see a movie..woo. then went off to work. alex and i worked together on the food. see we get things done. made plans to do relay for life and just sleep there, plus get tank to come. heard tank and christine broke up...awwww. i was then put on drive thru, the biggest stress i get is from that. but i was calm and did it the best i could. ian,ris,nikki,laura,tanvi all came anc visited me =)... made me happy. shawn drove me and angel home. well, shawns car is in the process of being taken apart and put back together, so it was a fun ride. angel was scared ! came home, fell asleep at 5 am. almost ready for the movies and see ian... later
I fell asleep really early last night, only to just take a nap. Sean was suppose to come home and make a pizza. well I awoken to what I thought was 1 am, I looked at the clock and everyone was up. they were painting the bathroom. so I came out and asked wheres the pizza.. "KRYSTAL ITS 4 AM". hmmmm made sense why no pizza. finally the room is cleaned and my HIM poster looks lovely on my wall. work today at 6 to 4 am. oh joy (( fake smile)). yea fun fun work 10 hours all the way into the earl morning to probably be put on drive thru to only have all the drunks and pot heads order. hooray. birthday is in a week to the dot. hah Ian now is workin on a corner.. no literally =p. he gets $7 an hour :: under the table pay:: to just hold a sign. well clothes are almost done washing and watching a movie on the WE channel... although awaiting for Joe to answer my question of him asking "how are me and my boyfriend".. ironic how i dont have a boyfriend and the guy I like doesnt like me....
home, no school, going to waste away my friday night watching Jerry Blank kick it high on season 3 for Comedy Central's Strangers with Candy. Tanvi wanted me to go to the movies, sadly I can not. I'm shit ass broke, yea. I wasted all my money at the mall today. Me and Jen went up to University Mall from about 10 to 3 today. fun, I wish I did not buy this custom at another store earlier last week, I found another one I highly like better at the custom store today. Disney store had nothing of the Chestire cat :: tear::. I didnt come home last night until 11, taco bell was insane. people all seemed to be on their periods. I bought a lovely black dress and another HIM shirt and finally a HIM poster. sadly I have no boyfriend to wear this lovely dress for, I have all these cute little outfits and skirts and blah blah I buy, but no one to wear them for. oh well :: shrugs::. A lot of people are IMing me but I dont feel like chatting .. hah. I remember when I use to just sit here and chat. anyways things are bothering me... I shall share.. I think its funny how a lot of fat girls take pics for facethejury or myspace and look skinny. just so guys will IM them or comment saying " wow your so hott". LAME. another one is peopel going on facethejury just to get people to comment they are good looking and just b/c they are attractive means they have good personalities. but sadly relationships a lot of times are based upon looks and looks alone. i mean its the punk thing to do in our society. hah yes i needed to lift that out of me. I could go on all day about things that are bothersome. but nah I'm trying to cope that "everyone does their own thing". time to save up kiddies, yes time to save up for my car. Going to get taught how to drive and just get the license at 18 or 19. This saving up thing is going to take about 2 years. by then I'll be heading off to college. well back hurts and I need to clean my room... later
just got off work, heh it was ok. but i am really pathetic. i think i talk too loud and talk too much shit about people. i need to be quiet and just keep to myself. sooner or later my big mouth is going to bite me in the ass. this is why i am so paranoid to trust people.... heh whatever. really no one to trust. i have a lot of homework tonight and yet again have to work another 6 hours tmw. friday no school and a day off, HOORAY. but now having anxiety and just pondering in a sad mood. wish I could talk to someone who will hold me in their arms and never judge me for my opinions or anything, just understand i trust them with everything and they think no different of me. but i never get the guys I like, kinda always been like that. really the one guy i want, i just dont think it'll happen. hes so great and i never show him i like him or anything. i wish we had a better friendship, i miss talkng to him on the phone and cuddles... lala =p. but i need rest. i'll be better in the morning....
at ben's house, holy shit its been like 2 months since i have seen this guy and also duggan. but seen duggan through drive thru at taco bell... hha i found some old pics of me on this computer and having some fun times watching them play PS2!! we'll probably watch fereinhiet 911 soon.. but duggan is all into this starocean game... well ben is watchin me type this and making me very uncomfortbaler... STOP!!!! the fucker poked me.... kill him!!
feeling real shitty... who wants to cuddle. people gave me great comments on my hair... booo yaaa niggas.... me and scott the people with purple and green hair. school was okay. feeling more "alive" now at school. nikki dyed her hair also, though a "natural" color. the lady came and visited me today, gave me some of my stuff, but wasnt what I was really hoping me... no need to hope.... all end up the way you never want anything. well to make people be eve more grossed out, i'll see how long i can go without washing my hair... come and get me boys !!! jen's cookin something good and I am real hungry. my room is awesome, yea thats right i said it. birthday is in a couple of days and feeling real good about this friday. now in conflict as to wheter i go to halloween horror nights or go to Tanvi's birthday thing..... so confused about something online and its driving me mad !!!!
day consisted of watching history channel and AMC. ate cookies and sat like a lazy fuck. nikki called at 12:30 and then I called Alex cause I found out somethings for a project for school. i cant sleep, dislike a lot of things.... heh feeling real shitty.
THE DRESS I GOT TODAY... NO THATS NOT ME
first got my bangs this summer
fucking long hair ::misses::
i dont effin know =p
